So today was semi-formal. Drama drama drama.
There is this guy (there always is a guy...) who recently broke up with his girlfriend of well over a year. I saw it coming. They weren't acting like boyfriend-girlfriend, and that's why he broke up with her. Anyway, even before they broke up, I though he may have a crush on me. I didn't think much of it because obviously he was in a relationship, and because he's really just a nice person, so I could be misconstruing his actions. But after they broke up, he all of a sudden clung to me. Not only was he being nice, he was talking to me all the time (ALL THE TIME), making jokes to me, sitting next to me whenever he could, and walking me to my car. I still didn't know what to do or how I felt. He is a really nice guy, a little weird, but hey, I can't talk. But, he did JUST get out of a big relationship, and summer vacation is right around the corner, so whats the point?
He has a friend that's a girl who has a crush on him. This is her first year in public schooling, so shes a bit naive to high school. He told her that he would hang out with her at the dance (you know, in a big group of friends). She put that as they were dates. He made it very clear that they weren't, and that I should hang out with him at the dance.
So, I walk into the school. The first person I see is him. I wait with him to go get my ticket, and he seems to be happy. We're in a group, and then the girl that thinks is his date walks up. I jokingly taunt him. Meanwhile, my bestfriend and his girlfriend are getting in this massive fight (again). She leaves crying, he's pissed. I go over to see what the matter is. I must be gone... 10, 15 minutes, and I go back to see the guy and the girl hand and hand dancing. Now, I'm not saying I'm heart broken over this, don't deny her and then be all over her. I'm thinking "wow, do you like me or what?" My other friend, Nikole, was confused as I was she asked him if they were going out. His reply was they were just friends dancing, fair enough. So now I'm thinking "you over jealous, obsessive, bitch. They're just friends. You don't even like him.... do you?" So I stick with my friends. About 10 minutes later I look over, and BAM, it hits me.
His ex-girlfriend is standing about 5 feet from them. The girl who he is dancing with is being used. Think about it. She's new to school, so she has no idea how players work, and this is her first crush, she would jump off a building. After thinking about it more, I thought of something else. Was I the one suppose to be played? He was being all nice, and getting close to me, and then I left, so he had to use his back up to make his ex jealous? What a typical guy.
I was feeling all sad about myself " a guy you're not even sure you like has already passed over you. Congratulations Lisa." But and then something else hit me.... I'm only 14. I don't even want to be married for AT LEAST 10 years, and I definitely don't want to be in a 10 year relationship through my teenage years. So why am I so bummin' about being single? Lets face it, if I were to get into a relationship now, I highly doubt they will be the guy I will be walking to the alter to. Why set myself up for heartbreak? I know it is better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all, but I'm 14. Can't I just have a good time without being someone's baby? High school relationships rarely work, and I plan on going to college, and I DON'T plan on long-distance relationships. I'm mine for right now, and I'm okay with that, because I know I will never break my heart. And I think I need to find myself before someone else can love it.
There is this guy (there always is a guy...) who recently broke up with his girlfriend of well over a year. I saw it coming. They weren't acting like boyfriend-girlfriend, and that's why he broke up with her. Anyway, even before they broke up, I though he may have a crush on me. I didn't think much of it because obviously he was in a relationship, and because he's really just a nice person, so I could be misconstruing his actions. But after they broke up, he all of a sudden clung to me. Not only was he being nice, he was talking to me all the time (ALL THE TIME), making jokes to me, sitting next to me whenever he could, and walking me to my car. I still didn't know what to do or how I felt. He is a really nice guy, a little weird, but hey, I can't talk. But, he did JUST get out of a big relationship, and summer vacation is right around the corner, so whats the point?
He has a friend that's a girl who has a crush on him. This is her first year in public schooling, so shes a bit naive to high school. He told her that he would hang out with her at the dance (you know, in a big group of friends). She put that as they were dates. He made it very clear that they weren't, and that I should hang out with him at the dance.
So, I walk into the school. The first person I see is him. I wait with him to go get my ticket, and he seems to be happy. We're in a group, and then the girl that thinks is his date walks up. I jokingly taunt him. Meanwhile, my bestfriend and his girlfriend are getting in this massive fight (again). She leaves crying, he's pissed. I go over to see what the matter is. I must be gone... 10, 15 minutes, and I go back to see the guy and the girl hand and hand dancing. Now, I'm not saying I'm heart broken over this, don't deny her and then be all over her. I'm thinking "wow, do you like me or what?" My other friend, Nikole, was confused as I was she asked him if they were going out. His reply was they were just friends dancing, fair enough. So now I'm thinking "you over jealous, obsessive, bitch. They're just friends. You don't even like him.... do you?" So I stick with my friends. About 10 minutes later I look over, and BAM, it hits me.
His ex-girlfriend is standing about 5 feet from them. The girl who he is dancing with is being used. Think about it. She's new to school, so she has no idea how players work, and this is her first crush, she would jump off a building. After thinking about it more, I thought of something else. Was I the one suppose to be played? He was being all nice, and getting close to me, and then I left, so he had to use his back up to make his ex jealous? What a typical guy.
I was feeling all sad about myself " a guy you're not even sure you like has already passed over you. Congratulations Lisa." But and then something else hit me.... I'm only 14. I don't even want to be married for AT LEAST 10 years, and I definitely don't want to be in a 10 year relationship through my teenage years. So why am I so bummin' about being single? Lets face it, if I were to get into a relationship now, I highly doubt they will be the guy I will be walking to the alter to. Why set myself up for heartbreak? I know it is better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all, but I'm 14. Can't I just have a good time without being someone's baby? High school relationships rarely work, and I plan on going to college, and I DON'T plan on long-distance relationships. I'm mine for right now, and I'm okay with that, because I know I will never break my heart. And I think I need to find myself before someone else can love it.
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