gahhhh

Procrastination, hospitals, health issues, dance recitals, SCHOOL, relationship drama..... welcome to high school everyone.
I haven't blogged in a while, but to tell you the truth, I just haven't had time. It feels like I don't even have time to breathe, but yet I find myself sitting on the couch watching the fan rotate (or on blogger, hopelessly complaining about my life in hopes to a legitimate excuse to why I'm an utter failure :x) Everything is due this week, EVERYTHING. And I'm beginning to notice that whenever a major assignment is due, the teacher is absent. Afraid of mutiny perhaps?
So right now, I just finished my part of the science project (I'm praying that my partner remembered her part) and I should be either doing French and Math, though I doubt I will. My mom is visiting my grandmother in the hospital right now. Something is wring with her lung. She has dementia, so she doesn't remember who any of us are. It breaks my mom's heart. But, anyway. I get to go to the doctors again.... honestly, my body is just fucked up. My dad went to the doctors on Monday, his cancer is going down, but he still needs to be on alert. My family should have it's own little wing at the hospital. Tibbetts wing, I like the sound of that.
My dance recital is in like, 3 weeks? But, as I said before, my body is fucked up. I'm under too much stress, and a dance recital is the last thing I want to do right now. I think we should have it in July, so I don't have to do finals a day after.
AND THE RELATIONSHIP DRAMA! The guy I wrote about last time, ughhh, he is so hard to figure out! So he was dancing with the girl, Kristen, and he even admited to being "really flirty" with her at the dance. But, he doesn't like her, I think he likes me? I do like him, but I'm not head over heels for him. He just seems like the kind of guy I should date. He's really touchy with me, but he's kinda like that to everyone, but with me it's different? He wants me to sit with him, and in health, he literally put his desk on top of mine and thats how we sat. He also tried to hold my hand, but as a joke? He talks to my sister (online, to be annoying) and he told her that he thinks I have a crush on him... but he just let it go after that? Jesus Christ, I feel like I'm 4. This whole emotional tag was how my last relationship was, and let me tell you.... it's shit. But between him just dumping his girlfriend, and then the whole thing with Kristen, how do I trust him? But he's just so goddamn nice to me....I've never had anyone like him. gahhhhh